DANG.!!!

hellos...haha.life's kind of monotonous now.its in black and white.and its stagnant.--may breed mozzies! sheesh.lame.wth.im currently pissed at this person now.maybe its kind of bad bitching bout X on this blog now but i had to let it out.sometimes me and X get along fine but these days i find X irritable.ha.dont know what happen.just 2 very different personalities.and i cant stand how some people absolutely fawning on X..i dont even know if thats the write adj to use for their actions but this is for me to vent my pissness only.so thosse nosey people buzz off man.and somehow i feel abit guilty for feeling like this as in maybe X still thinks im a true friend.but maybe X thinks this way of me too.who can tell.its not as if X and me are like the bestest friend of all best friends right.sometimes X is ok, as a friend.i get on well with her.but i can sense that X is double-standerdising.i think X treats me as a back-up.maybe im like that to some people too.so im going to apologise here to all whom felt they have been treated like back-ups by me.sorry.ok its enough le.im kind of feeling lonely now...